What have to reconcider? Dont I have an opinion? Am I an ugly doll that is waiting for a decision? Everyday... Every hour just goes by and I´m not crying and just waiting for any chance or anything that shows a little of you Any interest... No, I´m not waiting because I know there is nothing to wait for I informed my heart you wont come back And I´m just living If you decide to forgive If u decide to talk I still have to ask to my heart if he wants to be hurted again by not being loved back try to love again for both of us I still have to ask to my mind if she is prepared to see how u throw me out in the night and me begging for mercy I know i shouldn´t say what i said and i did apologize i did rectify what i said because and just because i have to respect but where is the respect for me? where is the respect for my love? I asked to be threated as a bitch in bed not in the middle of the night being asked to take my stuff and walk down the street in the middle of the night You have to reconsider about that wound i made on you where that wound was made? your head, arm, leg? because to be giving love for 5 months without receiving love back and then be threated as a nasty bitch made a big wound in my heart to give my hand to give my friendship to help to give a smile yes... i can just give and that is already yours to give my heart again even when he dies to be with u and give u my entire life i really have to reconsider... because im not thinking about that and im just living but when i do i cant stop crying... Piedelmundo...
Por fin en mi mundo.. sin nada ni nadie en mi propia oscuridad en mi soledad en mi y sin nadie mas.... por fin puedo llorar mis lagrimas sola sin miedo sin excusas sin ese temor a ser juzgada por alguna palabra sin esperar nada de nada sola abrazada a mi almohada sentir mis lagrimas correr por mis mejillas escuchar ese silencio de la nada de mi esa ausencia que yo misma hago sentir ese frio incesante que llega hasta mis huesos y saber que no te encontrare que trate de buscarte en otro lado y hoy tengo la certeza de que no estabas alli sin excusarme escuchar a mi mente y saber que me digo la verdad que no estas que no estaras que yo misma estoy perdida que no hay nadie solo un cuerpo sin alma una mente que divaga en el universo y al rededor de ella no hay mas que lo que ella misma es nada!!
Days ago my life was gone as a kid when is out of sugar.... just dead walking, talking living just bcz yesterday with one of his kisses with his eyes with his hands and a lot of words coming out of his mouth i got alive again got filled of energy touched the stars felt my heart beating and couldnt even think i just had that stupid smile on my lips of a woman inlove that sight i couldnt hide that happiness singing as laugh on me felt my life as a rollercoaster being on the top touching with my fingertips the stars but i got much information i got the idea of her inviting him to go on a trip for a week her inviting him and today when the reality came to and hit my face with those words today after having the idea of going back there after planing again my whole life her name came to my mind and destroyed all my sand castles erased my smile and twisted my heart she wants him with her she is willing to do anything to have him who am i? or what can i do just nothing then... my words to him... you are free to love me but free no, i wont move there, i cant expose my heart again to be thrown out can´t expose my own since i dont have wings God made me human not bird can´t move from one brench to another and continue singing as nothing happened so, i wont move there untill you are sure is me who you want and love untill i feel secure again right now i just feel unsecure and sure nomatter what if i move there again i´ll be thrown away and i cant afford such a thing
love me free... maybe u can find that love u want on those conversations that excitemnt that happiness so love me free like that you can decide to have me or simply not these wound are asking me for time to be carefull to let u be free to love me free... as a bird open ur wings and fly enjoy your life and if u realize you need me then come and let me know come and fly by my side if not, im letting u to be free i´m not letting you to hurt me more so,,, while u fly i heal and if you decide to have her if you decide that your life is definatly not by me I can still smile bcz i loved you!! but now... you are free to love me and decide what to do!! Piedelmundo...
because to be giving love for 5 months 
