What have to reconcider?
Dont I have an opinion?
Am I an ugly doll that is waiting for a decision?
Everyday...
Every hour just goes by
and I´m not crying and just waiting for any chance
or anything that shows a little of you
Any interest...
No, I´m not waiting
because I know there is nothing to wait for
I informed my heart you wont come back
And I´m just living
If you decide to forgive
If u decide to talk
I still have to ask to my heart
if he wants to be hurted again
by not being loved back
try to love again for both of us
I still have to ask to my mind
if she is prepared to see
how u throw me out in the night
and me begging for mercy
I know i shouldn´t say what i said
and i did apologize
i did rectify what i said
because and just because
i have to respect
but where is the respect for me?
where is the respect for my love?
I asked to be threated as a bitch
in bed
not in the middle of the night
being asked to take my stuff and walk down the street
in the middle of the night
You have to reconsider about that wound i made on you
where that wound was made?
your head, arm, leg?
because to be giving love for 5 months
without receiving love back
and then be threated as a nasty bitch
made a big wound in my heart
to give my hand
to give my friendship
to help
to give a smile
yes... i can just give
and that is already yours
to give my heart again
even when he dies to be with u
and give u my entire life
i really have to reconsider...
because
im not thinking about that
and im just living
but when i do
i cant stop crying...
Piedelmundo...
Por fin en mi mundo..
sin nada ni nadie
en mi propia oscuridad
en mi soledad
en mi y sin nadie mas....
por fin puedo llorar mis lagrimas sola
sin miedo
sin excusas
sin ese temor a ser juzgada por alguna palabra
sin esperar nada de nada
sola abrazada a mi almohada
sentir mis lagrimas correr por mis mejillas
escuchar ese silencio de la nada de mi
esa ausencia que yo misma hago
sentir ese frio incesante que llega hasta mis huesos
y saber que no te encontrare
que trate de buscarte en otro lado
y hoy
tengo la certeza de que no estabas alli
sin excusarme
escuchar a mi mente y saber que me digo la verdad
que no estas
que no estaras
que yo misma estoy perdida
que no hay nadie
solo un cuerpo sin alma
una mente que divaga
en el universo
y al rededor de ella no hay mas
que lo que ella misma es
nada!!
Piedelmundo...
Days ago my life was gone
as a kid when is out of sugar....
just dead
walking, talking
living just bcz
yesterday with one of his kisses
with his eyes
with his hands
and a lot of words coming out of his mouth
i got alive again
got filled of energy
touched the stars
felt my heart beating
and couldnt even think
i just had that stupid smile on my lips
of a woman inlove
that sight i couldnt hide
that happiness singing as laugh on me
felt my life as a rollercoaster
being on the top touching with my fingertips the stars
but i got much information
i got the idea of her inviting him
to go on a trip
for a week
her inviting him
and today when the reality
came to and hit my face with those words
today
after having the idea of going back there
after planing again my whole life
her name came to my mind
and destroyed all my sand castles
erased my smile
and twisted my heart
she wants him with her
she is willing to do anything to have him
who am i?
or what can i do
just nothing
then...
my words to him...
you are free to love me
but free
no, i wont move there,
i cant expose my heart again to be thrown out
can´t expose my own since i dont have wings
God made me human not bird
can´t move from one brench to another
and continue singing as nothing happened
so, i wont move there
untill you are sure is me who you want and love
untill i feel secure again
right now i just feel unsecure and sure
nomatter what if i move there again
i´ll be thrown away
and i cant afford such a thing
love me free...
maybe u can find that love u want on those conversations
that excitemnt
that happiness
so love me free
like that you can decide to have me
or simply not
these wound are asking me for time
to be carefull
to let u be free to love me
free... as a bird
open ur wings and fly
enjoy your life
and if u realize you need me
then come and let me know
come and fly by my side
if not, im letting u to be free
i´m not letting you to hurt me more
so,,, while u fly
i heal
and if you decide to have her
if you decide that your life is definatly not by me
I can still smile bcz i loved you!!
but now...
you are free to love me
and decide what to do!!
Piedelmundo...
