Free to love me...

Days ago my life was gone 
as a kid when is out of sugar.... 
just dead 
walking, talking 
living just bcz 
yesterday with one of his kisses 
with his eyes 
with his hands
and a lot of words coming out of his mouth 
i got alive again 
got filled of energy 


touched the stars 
felt my heart beating 
and couldnt even think 
i just had that stupid smile on my lips 
of a woman inlove 
that sight i couldnt hide 
that happiness singing as laugh on me 

felt my life as a rollercoaster 
being on the top touching with my fingertips the stars

but i got much information 
i got the idea of her inviting him 
to go on a trip 
for a week 
her inviting him 
and today when the reality 
came to and hit my face with those words 
today 
after having the idea of going back there 
after planing again my whole life 
her name came to my mind 
and destroyed all my sand castles 
erased my smile 
and twisted my heart 
she wants him with her 
she is willing to do anything to have him 
who am i?
or what can i do 
just nothing 

then...

my words to him... 
you are free to love me 
but free 
no, i wont move there, 
i cant expose my heart again to be thrown out 
can´t expose my own since i dont have wings 
God made me human not bird 
can´t move from one brench to another 
and continue singing as nothing happened 
so, i wont move there 
untill you are sure is me who you want and love 
untill i feel secure again 
right now i just feel unsecure and sure 
nomatter what if i move there again 
i´ll be thrown away  
and i cant afford such a thing 

love me free...
maybe u can find that love u want on those conversations
that excitemnt 
that happiness 
so love me free 
like that you can decide to have me 
or simply not 
these wound are asking me for time 
to be carefull 
to let u be free to love me 
free... as a bird 
open ur wings and fly 
enjoy your life 
and if u realize you need me 
then come and let me know
come and fly by my side 
if not, im letting u to be free 
i´m not letting you to hurt me more 
so,,, while u fly 
i heal 
and if you decide to have her 
if you decide that your life is definatly not by me 
I can still smile bcz i loved you!!

but now...
you are free to love me 
and decide what to do!!


Piedelmundo...