Oh Me and my Mind!!!

Today when I checked my e-mail

on that situation of being sleepy, dizzy,...

I had about 14 e-mails...

between my important  e-mails, things to erase, spam, 

and other things...

Greeting Cards- your e-card has been sent!! 

first thing i thought... Oh well, just yesterday i was thinking to send a little message to say hi to my sweet Alan and aparently i did... time ago

I opened the message and...

OH SURPRISE!!!

Oh no... 

felt more dizzy 

Well that being know how to use the delete button...

Really hope it doesn´t bother  him, neither his significant one 

Reading this and bringing to my mind those words and feelings 

Just hope that person is ok , have all the happiness 

and for me... i hope this healing time   i´m taking to laugh

help me to find myself and the correct one !!

If I feel disappointed?? 

course i do!!

But oh well... just hope i didn´t  send anymore cards...

Reading those words i recognize myself, 

I see how afraid i was to be alone

I didn´t know what was coming

I didn´t know that, what happened on june, was a chance to don´t be so hurted

but at the same time I´m glad 

because i wouldn´t be able to open my eyes 

and maybe now... I would be missing him

maybe now I would be reading these words with a tear bcz of what i lost... Ha!! 

I didn´t lose anything, just some time 

but learning time is not lost time

I learned a lot... 

also... I have heard that doesn´t lose who love 

lose who didn´t give him/herself the chance to love

so I didn´t lose, even when, I admit, I was looking for someone on him, I loved him

And now... I´m getting ready, looking forward, opening my boundaries, enjoying the light and smiling back to the sun

Oh well...

is  good to analize our past and how we improved 

pay per view his face... with his yuk expression when he saw he got a card from me... hahahha i´m sorry i provided such a bad moment!! but...

For now

I will leave it there!! 

Piedelmundo!!!

Hi,

This is actually the 14th of June...

well... 

i was thinking about you  and missing you like crazy 

and for a moment i thot that is always better to say what u feel 

then i opened the chat window but... no...

then i decided, as always, to write... 

and send u this but in a time when i probably wont bother u and u wont even remind me...

hope u have what u want and who u want now on this day that i dont know what that will be... 

sorry.. u know im stupid

and i love u... 

and i had to tell u!!

Enjoy ur happiness!!

                                                         Vivian Ow!!

Please Ignore me 
Do not think to respond 
not with kindness
not with a hard word 
just...
Do not respond...

what i want to tell you, 
I miss you 
Im dying...
I dont see you anymore 
your face is leaving space 
and i miss u 

really wish to be able to pass the page 
really want to continue walking 
see other people 
and have a real smile 

but i feel i lost something 
and this is the moment when 
everybody is around me 
my mind is busy 
but this moment will pass 
and ill be alone again 
facing your absence 

Do not respond...
please let me continue my process 
but 
at this moment 
i have to admit 

I miss you!!

Piedelmundo...