Then and Now!!

By this days is tnksgiving 

but im not sending it to myslf bcz of that 

im sending it to myslf 

bcz at this moment i have a presentation today 

i have the final exams the next week and have metodology by the 5th of dec 

also have the graduation of my kids 

and need to be focus on what i have to do 

but his memories are coming to my mind rite now 

to put me down 

and i dont need that 

i just want to know how im feeling by the end of my 2nd semester  at the university and how i did now 

i have to do my best to do well if i really want to do something for my slf 

it is very hard to imagine him 

with his little girl 

but i have to improve for myslf and do well 

what if after a while i look back and see that i didnt do good for someone that is not interested on me at all 

and i lost my time??

him and everything 

NNNNNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOO VIVIAN YOU HAVE TO FOLLOW A DREAM 

AND YOUR DREAM WAS TO BE SOMEONE PREPARED 

AT A TIME YOU GOT DISAPOINTED BCZ HE IS JUST A TRUCK DRIVER 

U LOVE HIM YES 

BUT HE IS NOTHING AND U HAVE TO CONTINUE LIVING 

HE IS NO MORE WITH U AND THAT IS HARD 

BUT THE FACT THAT HE IS NOT WITH YOU 

DOESNT MEAN U HAVE TO LEAVE YOURSLF ALONE 

THERE SHOULD BE SOMEONE THAT WANTS TO MAKE YOU HAPPY AND YOU WILL FIND THE INSPIRATION AGAIN

JUST WAIT ON JESUS 

HE LOVES YOU 

EVEN WHEN U FEEL DOWN!! 

Well...

My life has change a lot 

someone came to my life and is already gone 

is something i have to fight with now

I´m having a hard time

last nite i dreamed of sleeping on the street literally 

trying to be focus on those two important things on my life 

my kids 

and my university 

with my tears trying to come out once i let them  

but without a wall to hide them 

having to show a smile 

feeling more alone 

and sad than ever 

but with the mentality that God 

will raise me again... 

i mite send another card to myslf 

about all this situation now 

i really want keep all this in my mind 

dont forget what are the experiences im having 

to be able to appreciate every minute 

every kiss 

every hug 

every blessing 

when i have them again 

i dont know 

i really dont understand why now 

anything seems to get resolve easily and fast

and every step i make 

is, just, showing me that the only interested in me 

is me!!

but i know that in a while 

i´ll look back and will feel happy bcz i was able to pass 

all this situation!!

Im not good 

Im not happy 

but 

Im alive, have my kids 

and my university to feel good!!!

Piedelmundo!!