Eeewwww... My English is getting MORE THAN TERRIBLE

I`m on an English course to have the certification, I have to send an audio talking about my family... 
Yesterday I made a couple of attempts of those audios or videos, but at the end I got horrified with my english I NEED TO PRACTICE MY SPEAKING, THINKING, WRITING, DREAMING, and listening?  I don`t think I need to improve my listening but STILL 
Aaaahhhhhh... 
Terrible... I`m so sad about, I will show you my english videos.
Can imagine those faces judging me (as usual) bcz of my bad english grammar, pronunciation, vocabulary, etc, etc, etc...

Shame of me... 

I will make a good video and will post it here... 

Piedelmundo!!