Just Because... i love my words... the person is already forgotten!!

On October 2013 

i was dying for Alan R. Ames

is not easy  put in the trash 4 years of ur life 

and that took a long time 

Today i got this card that i postdated for him 

and i was thinking to dont post it here....

bcz is not what i feel 

if he is happy or not i dont know 

im sure he is 

but that is not my concern... i tried to be happy when i was with him 

and i made many things to make him happy 

Im posting it today 

just because 

i love my words 

those words were my feelings 

and were true...

now... 

my life a different direction 

and is not following him

SO... 

JUST BECAUSE I LOVE MY WORDS!!! 

Alan...

Hi...

just to wish you a wonderful day 

i took the 15th of september.. Colombia Valentine´s day...

is a good day to say hi

and i love you!!  

Hope you have all you want and wish today and always

my part.. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU... 

NO MATTER WHAT IM DOING I KNOW IM STILL LOVING YOU!!

Piedelmundo!!

mmmm...  now i got this... 

You need to write down or correct this information:        • If you select deferred delivery, the delivery date should be greater than today and         no more greater of 9 months. then... Father´s day!!   u have a wonderfull day with your family full of love  and presents!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oyQdCJwJZck

Actually this is  october 3rd, i just sent u a card to tell you i love you

but i think you got tired of my e-cards 

or you are on a date... mmmm!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0R-FGchhwLw

I wrote this yesterday morning... 2nd of october...

is so terrible to love someone and realize you will never stop 

that you mite find someone but you will never do the things you did for that someone... 

Alan

I can imagine you thinking i finally gave up 

im not writing anymore 

and i finally let u go 

as usual because thats what i do the bst 

but no

i didnt stop writing 

or thinking of you

i still do 

if i gave up 

yes i did 

bcz there is no response 

but 

unfortunally 

life is not like a switch

if u want light u turn that on

or off 

if u dont 

life is not the  theory of being human

life is the practice of being human

and we make mistakes on 

so... on the theory i try my bst to stop thinking of you 

and do those things i should and must do for my own benefit 

as study 

wrk

talk with my partners 

fix my slf 

care of myslf 

thats the theory i try on days like today 

2nd of october btw 

not the day u will receive this words i didnt thnk of yet 

then i behave the way i should... as i can bcz words dont wait 

then all of them comes to my mind and hands to express what i feel 

then i have to not make overtime what would give me 10.000 pesos per hour and decide to write to you 

that wont see my sacrifice and wont respond....

but thats how life is....

you decide, as the theoric part of your life, but the reality is totally different 

math, science, filosophy, laws, 

all studies go chasing the same...

theory is what should be 

reality is what it is!! 

then try to live in between...

a lot of words to tell you 

i love you and im thinking of you

life is too short to love someone and dont let that person know 

for me is better to live, love you and let you know 

if you dont care 

if you dont want 

if you dont believe 

if you dont respond 

if you hate me 

that´s totally up to you

but me...

im making my part 

loving you and letting you know!!

you have a good day!!