A magic day!!

Hola vivian...

Happy bday to my slf...

Actually this is nov the 20th

1:08 am 

really late for us...

my daughter is going back to monteria tomorrow...

i already miss her 

but at the time im excited about the graduation...

today i missed A*** man 

a lot...

we spoke with Patrick this morning but that didnt wrk 

i have the feeling he just want me to accompany his loneliness as i want him to accompany mine..

i just posted a couple of writings on my blog and felt to die...

but i have to be strong for my kids..

this is not easy...

i hope something change soon

my life is coming to be a lot of sadness bcz of him that doesnt thnk of me 

and is actually having happiness with his girl

i hope for the time i get this 

my story has changed and im smiling with new real smiles...

im so desperate 

and alone...

im tired of this...

cant cont living 

let´s see what happens....

hope im not in the same situation...

Vivian!!

Well...

I got that from myself on my bday...

that was a magic day!!

never thot could feel that much of happiness.
and everytime i was looking in to those eyes i felt i did belong there 

yes... i laughted of happiness 
that day was great, like a dream even thot we got lost in Sta Mta
and couldnt do what we wanted, that was to have sex on the beach 
it was still so magic and i did enjoy it 

i have never being that happy
i have never enjoy a time like that crazy trip...

last year i was not happy 
got a crazy moment during the nite 
but nothing else, just loneliness 
this time i had a dream in my hands 

the promise of eternal love 
and most of all lots of happiness!!

Well... tht got blurred by those eyes running again behind a couple of stars 
then i realized that the moment passed and i had to continue with my reality 

Well... today is june 7
and the story says something totally different
again alone 
again wondering when it is going to end 
and where i´ll find my owner
will i find him or not?
i guess not... im so old now!!

Piedelmundo...