Let´s say it could be a diary and because my blog days start the day before, I wonder why, I will write of those things from yesterday...
What is the point? I don´t know, It is about me, what I feel and felt... Nothing important for anybody but me, I need to put everything in order, check what is the best for me, continue with my process and continue walking!!!
Ok...
I was concern about my friend then I looked for him everywhere and while I was on that I got on the dating site...
The Dating Site where the time before I got there, nobody, talked to me because I was so far from them or, maybe, I was too ugly. I like that site bcz of the questions...
Then yesterday I got about five men talking to me; on the part where I have to say what I´m looking for I had FOR NEW FRIENDS; but they were flirting with me; so I felt... Really?? Ok, I just have to be clear and tell them what I´m looking for and what is my emotional situation and the process I´m going though, I thought but... One of them (Mike) when I explained all that told me "great, I´m writing a book about bla bla bla bla" I read untill he said writing a book and thought, Really?? I have to jump out from this, I forgot about the other guys, told Mike I was leaving the site bcz of some reasons I preffer to keep and don´t read that myself... He didn´t respond with any rude word and said ok, please take my phone number before u leave... after that I clicked on that discard account button, and stayed for a while trying to think about something different, asking to my vivi Why u did that? Why? then a voice in my head said "because ure not a Pig" and U wont feel good if u don´t say the truth and stay there...
Apparently while that was happening my friend sent a message to me saying something about his day and how busy he was... Ok... I thought
Still thinking about the way I jumped out from the dating site, Mike answer to my reasons and reaction to his words. I went to bed really early
Got up early, made the coffee, as usual, and drank it with a positive conversation with my parents, lots of opinions and laughters... Is that time of the day I love
At 10:00 am or more I saw my laptop all bored on the sofa but I ignored her, I took my phone and saw how the numbers of e-mails was raising and the notifications from my whatsapp, left my phone on the table...
An hour later came back, said good morning to my whatsapp and picked up my laptop checked my fb and finally went to check my e-mail...
I thought all those 30 e-mails were the regular junk but no...
I read what I had to read, erased the ones I had to erase, and left those... a cup of coffee
and a piece of candy
Read one and Ok...
No words for me not even Hi then OK!!
read the other and got... Really??, REALLY?? Owww!!
And while I´m responding my e-mails
I got another e-mail and my reaction was RREEEAAALLLYYYYYYYY?? HAHAHAHHA What should I do? What should I think about that?
I thought about sharing that with my friend and ask him what to think about... but, I don´t know, I don´t need anybody laughing on me because of that piece from my past and giving wrong opinions of what they don´t know...
Now after a while... listening to my fave song "Mi Persona Favorita"
After I read about Anxiety which is what I suffer, I think
http://www.playbuzz.com/esteecraven10/21-things-everyone-with-anxiety-need-you-to-understand
I hope I don´t, I don´t need that stupidness in my life
Thinking again about the dating site I think, to run away was the right reaction, I have to wait a little more, I´m in a process, to be distracted I have sum coffee cups and candy pieces to enjoy... And it wont take too long to be ready, my mind is not racing, I didn´t drop a tear, neither had any negative feelings, I´m not thinking about what is waiting for me out there but about me and somehow I have a plan for my future!!
WWoohhhooo!! W H A T A D A Y ! ! !
Ok with a smile on my lips and my song on my ears... I will leave it here...
Piedelmundo!!!
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