What i really want...

Talking with a friend today..

She is the one by my side, btw, she is the one who asked me if you said something for her one time

Now her relationship is good, Im glad I had the experience enough to help her

Ok… today she asked me

Bcz, I was so sad…

Did you ask him what is the reason for his actitude?

Did you ask him why he read your messages but don’t say nothing?

By that moment I didn’t respond nothing and she had to take her bus

But I answered those questions to my slf, I imagine you looking at me  to kill me if I ask such question…

But, guess what…

Now youre not reading me and you will not…

So I can ask and i´ll receive the same answer

Hun, why?

If many times we fought and when you called me even when I felt you were not right I didn’t ignore you

Why if you read me, why you don’t say nothing even to blame on me?

Why you read me?

if the reason is that youre that loyal and you have someone why you read me??

This is so difficult… member I told you im a difficult person??

So… I am

But im willing to change

I can accept

You  spiting in my mouth and hit me everyday if you just say hi…

I can change and stop talking

If  you come back to me …

Come back to me… and i´ll be your servant for the rest of my life

I can trade my life

To be with you

To have you again…

Anything, anything for you

To see you smiling and hear your voice

To touch you and kiss your hands

To feel your touch on my skin

To hug you

And taste you again

Anything

I would trade all my smiles

To see yours

I can give out all I have

All I want

Just to feel your arms around me

Or not even for that

Just to see you

behind the cold screen of my laptop

October 6 2013

It was a terrible day yesterday,

I woke up crying because I dreamed of you

And didn’t want to get up

Didn’t want to look at my cellphn

Because I knew there was nothing from you

During my work time was hard

Because everything reminded me of you

The names of my customers

Allan something

People from

Scarborough

Main

Rochester…

Well… that was a terrible morning

Me trying to forget and smile

But all my tears coming at once…

One of my customers, the one from main,

Asked what happened

When I asked for the zip code and I saw the name of that

And my voice got broken he sd

Is everything ok?? I replayed,

Yes…

I asked for the place… he sd yes that´s the area were ill be using my phn the most

Then my system got frozen I asked him..

Sorry, are you by the lake?

And he sd yes I am by the lake

Have you been here??

I sd, no…

Then I couldn’t cont talking

And he asked again

Is everything ok??

I sd with my voice broken

Yes, sir sorry, my system is still frozen I have to open my tools again

Then he said…

No, im asking if you are ok, I know your system is not that good but I think you´re not good neither…

I didn’t respond

Then he said

Sorry youre not ok, God bless you

Then at the end of the day

Told to my friend Kelly

Why? What kind of father is God that enjoy to see me crying?

Im asking him not to mk me forget about Alan

Not to make me hate him

Not to make him come back to me

But to stop this pain in my heart

But he is not helping me

I just want to remind him with a smile without tears

But

I get soaked of tears without smiles…

She told me…

Sorry my friend you feel guilty

And this sorrow wont stop

And the worst is that you didn’t know how you love him…

Now you realized you cant live without him

And is now when you have to try without him…

Today I got up without tears

I thot of you and felt how I wanted to…

Not happiness but no tears.. no terrible pain

Then the destiny

Came with a phrase

Hay teléfonos, e-mails, facebook, twitter, whatsapp, cartas, telegramas y señales de humo. Si no te habla es porque no quiere.

No need to translate since u wont read this….

As my profile picture on fb I got hit on my face and my mouth is bleeding…

At this moment I wish I get in an accident that erase you from my mind

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3pkWeWDn25I

what I really want??

You back… nothing else

If I don’t have you

Tell me a good reason to continue

Like when you feel under the big foot of the world

Piedelmundo…

Be different

Good morning

One time you told me you are different 

stubborn but different

and in a way thats exactly what keep my in love with you

but now, im asking you to be different for real

is not that i saw you 

or someone told me nothing because im pretty far from you and nobody know you 

but God always show me the reality 

one time when you went to your father house 

 

yes i have this pic!!!  

that time, God showed me you guiding a girl 

then i kept dreaming of you and the same girl

i didnt say nothing bcz i knew you were not to say nothing 

but i knew u had someone 

if that was for real or virtual, i dont know

that weekend you told me you were busy and unable to call 

as every weekend..

so i was the girl for the bussiness days

well... that is not important for you .. i know 

is only important for me since i still love you 

believe me i fight this everyday 

every morning 

every nite... is very embarrasing for me to admit i cant stop bothering you 

and im praying for this... 

im asking for a miracle, God is a imposibles God... so, 

im asking him to take out the sorrow

ok but the thing is... 

please help me and be different 

i have to admit i wont stop writing to you because that´s the way i am 

i love to post what i feel and in your case 

i want you to know what i feel 

but you can help not reading my e-cards 

just delete them when you get them 

and as i mentioned before 

by doing that you will show respect and love to the one with you

Do you really think someone deserve that??

what if she find you reading me?? 

ok... you mite say is just curiosity 

but, you are still reading me

i think is not fair for a soul in love!!

please let me be right 

and be different

that´s exactly what i loved of you!!

https://www.facebook.com/realmendontlie?hc_location=stream

Tell me now

this is the poem... is so beautifull 

but 

i cant ask you for what it says..

If you're ever going to love me
love me now, while I can know
All the sweet and tender feeling
which from real affection flow.
Love me now, while I am living;
do not wait till I am gone
And then chisel it in marble--
warm love words on ice-cold stone.



If you've dear, sweet thought of me,
why not whisper them to me?
Don't you know 'twould make me happy
and as glad as glad could be?
If you wait till I am sleeping,
ne'er to waken here again,
There'll be walls of earth between us
and I couldn't hear you then.



If you knew someone was thirsting
for a drop of water sweet
Would you be slow to bring it?
Would you step with laggard feet?
There are tender hearts all round us
who are thirsting for our love;
Why withhold from them what nature
makes them crave all else above?



I won't need your kind caresses
when the grass grows o'er my face;
I won't crave your love or kisses
in my last low resting place.
So, then, if you love me any,
if it's but a little bit,
Let me know it now while living;
I can own and treasure it. 

This is not mine... 
but i love it

Piedelmundo...

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