Well... I will take what I got last night as an inspiration of what I want to talk about, I wont go on details about what it said or anything like that, but what came to my mind.
20 years ago I had a good friend, we were like sisters; going everywhere and sharing almost everything; after a while she left Colombia because she finally got her citizenship for her husband country, we lost contact, but thanks to Facebook we found each other, again, the situation got to be different since the time has passed and we didn`t have much to talk about, through chat or e-mails.
All my life I have been seen as a person who doesn`t have a filter in her mouth to say anything and even being that person who doesn`t know what is the phrase that goes first or after; then, my friend used to tell me I had to change my way and I agreed with her. I changed on those 20 years and actually faced many times people who doesn`t, really, have a filter and do not have the idea of what to say first when they have to meet someone, but I never say anything because I accept people how they are and some people is not willing to change or their neurones, just, don`t match and reproduce. But I`m nothing to judge anybody.
When I got in touch with her again, 8 years ago, we chatted and she started to check on my pictures and made comments there; her comments were not what I would expect from her as a friend, she seemed more to be an enemy but I took that as jokes and didn`t replay how she deserved, one time I made a comment on one of her pictures and it was "what happened to you?" she got mad and on an e-mail explained the last 3 years of her life, I understood and replayed to her that all that happened is in the past and she was better then, after that I found two comments from her, one saying she hope I don`t have to use glasses for reading because I look terrible and more with them and the other was about those bad thing I should be doing with my life since the application of how I would look when I`m on my 70`s is showing a terrible picture of a horrible old lady... I got like eehhmmm... Ok hahahhahah and just replayed saying "I think you have to check on yourself first" and she blocked me.
Last nite all that came to my mind
Then my question is, am I expecting too much from people?
Maybe, am I not comprehensive enough?
Then what if I take out my filter and start saying things the same way people hit me?
What if turn to be who I was before and live by what I think without caring of the others?
I`m not sure if that is what the "DETACH" process is about; think, love, and care about myself first and only, so... who cares about what I say or what the people says if we shouldn`t expect anything, if we accept people how they are but if we don`t accept we just leave... But we are not robots we are humans.
Well... me? I will continue wearing whatever I like and if anybody don`t like I will respond with a Phrase I heard one time, "Si a mi marido y a mi me gusta como me veo, que me importa a mi que a ti no te guste" If I like and my man likes how I look, I don`t care if you don`t like. and wont expect anymore for those, basice, rules of social life and if I expect something I will expect on my future that will bring the best only, no matter what is left on the way.
Piedelmundo!!
