I Learned...

Well...
today  making an exam to my self 
and by the latests events in my life 
I can tell 
I learned sum lessons...
and im glad i did,,,
I´m not saying i´m ready for what comes but 
at least I am better to face anything 
and im kind totally sure I´ll try my best to don´t hurt people...








Ok what i mean is ... 
before i didn´t really care if someone was in need of me
if i didnt want to talk with that person 
i just gave my back 
and walked away.

I got ignored before but i, just, didnt care of that and continued living.
Always said...
there is something better for me out there 
and i can find that by the corner...

Never heard real reasons from the people  or just didn´t hear reasons. 
I never admitted to love someone 

With all this...
after I got totally ignored 
needed someone like the air to live 




I know, now,  I´ll look first on the other person feelings and talk 
with the truth if I don´t want to continue with that relationship
I promise to try my best to explain what happens and then I´ll walk away...
because if I have a reason, that should be enough for me to leave 

Yes I got ignored before,
 i cried for a couple of days and after that 
as i always say...
the stupidity of thinking i got ugly desappeared
then i continued living... 
Now, I think,  I´ll try to ask what happened and will try to understand and learn
from there, what is happening with the other person to have such an actitud against me.

no body is perfect and nobody is the exception... 
everybody can give a lesson out of simple things the fact is to be open to learn and grow!!


Oh but yes... is still the same thing... after a woman get sick of stupidity and think she is ugly 
there is always someone around the corner  to tell you how beautifull you are!! 
the matter is if you are already healthy
or if you are still sick of stupidity.

Real resons... 
Real reasons are the real problem of our minds... 
there is always easier for the people to give a lie 
diguised with excuses of love or kindness 
to be forgiven...

now on,,, i preffer the truth instead of a disguised lie
no matter what... 
I preffer the truth!!!

The last part.. 
Yes,, i never admited to really love someone,
Looking on my life 
I didn´t like to be laughted on
I was always afraid of what people think 
and didn´t want to feel i was less than nobody else 
just because i had such a feeling for someone.
now, i know is the best 
to realize 
how in love you are
and to let the others know that  
doesn´t mean 
you are a loser 
that makes you a winner 
because your heart is healthy 
because you can admit it  to yourself 
Love is the best feeling a human can have, 
that doesn´t make me weak,
that makes me able to live 
to feel 
and a real Daughter of God 

I still  love him 
and I´m not afraid to admit that 
i can tell ,I am, since 
he is ignoring me and that was hurting me bad 
now i got used to... 
Since i needed him and I still do
Even when he lied on me 
and i forgave him
Even when I know there is not only  one or two telling me 
I´m not ugly 
and they could be worth 

but I just dream with that smile ...



and the correct one will wait till i´m ready to freely give my love and make a part of his life


I know it has been a good time 
I know there is some people waiting for my eyes to look at them
I know there is no hope 

but I have to wait untill God take my love
take my words 
take my tears 
and completely fix my heart 
That moment, when all his promises will come true 
is coming...
and I´ll smile again!! 

Now i look back in my mind and feel 
sorry for myself 
but one day i´ll look back 
and will smile because of the lessons i have learned out of all this
because of him... 
God Bless him, his life and everything he does everyday!! 
From my heart 
God bless him and every single person he have to meet everyday!!


Thank you Lord I know you are with me 
and you put everything on my way for me to learn how to love 
and how to follow you!!


Piedelmundo!!!