Want to erase you ...

let´s see what day i put there...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3pkWeWDn25I

Ojala pudiera borrarte... 

Ojala y te me borraras de mis sueños 
y poder desdibujarte 
ojala y pudiera ahogarte en un charco 
lleno de rosas y amor 
ojala y se me olvidara hasta tu nombre 
ahogarlo dentro del mar 
ojala y que tu sonrisa de verano 
se pudiera ya borrar... 

Vuelve corazón, 
uh uh uh vuelve a mi lado 
Vuelve corazón... 
No vuelve, no vuelve, no vuelve, No... 

Ojala y te me borraras para siempre de mi vida 
para no volverte a ver 
y ojala y te me borraras por las noches 
en el día, para no volverte a ver 
y ojala y te me esfumaras de mis sueños 
vida mía 
para no volverte a ver 
Nooooo, ni en sueños... 

Como puedo yo borrar tus besos vida 
están tatuados en mi piel 
quiero de una vez por todas ya largarte 
y borrarte de mi ser... 

Ojala y la lluvia me ahogue entre sus brazos 
para no pensar en ti 
O que pase un milagro o pase algo 
que me lleve hasta ti... 

Vuelve corazón... 
uh uh uh uh vuelve a mi lado 
Pero no no no no vuelve corazón 
No vuelve, no vuelve, no vuelve, No... 

Ojala y te me borraras para siempre de mi vida 
para no volverte a ver 
y ojala y te me borraras por las noches en el día 
para no volverte a ver 
y ojala y te me esfumaras de mis sueños 
vida mía 
y que no me lluevas más 
y ojala y que la lluvia me ahogue entre sus brazos 
para no volverte a ver... 

Nooo, ni en sueños... 

Pa´ que pares de llover... 
Sueños... sueños... oooh mis sueños..

this song says...

i wish i can erase you from my dreams 

or a miracle to happens or something that bring me to you 

wish you get erased for ever of my life to dont see you anymore 

well... 

i just wish something like that happens to me...

to stop crying 

i would be happy if you get erased from my mind

because to dont have you is the worst thing 

i made 

Piedelmundo 

What i really want...

Talking with a friend today..

She is the one by my side, btw, she is the one who asked me if you said something for her one time

Now her relationship is good, Im glad I had the experience enough to help her

Ok… today she asked me

Bcz, I was so sad…

Did you ask him what is the reason for his actitude?

Did you ask him why he read your messages but don’t say nothing?

By that moment I didn’t respond nothing and she had to take her bus

But I answered those questions to my slf, I imagine you looking at me  to kill me if I ask such question…

But, guess what…

Now youre not reading me and you will not…

So I can ask and i´ll receive the same answer

Hun, why?

If many times we fought and when you called me even when I felt you were not right I didn’t ignore you

Why if you read me, why you don’t say nothing even to blame on me?

Why you read me?

if the reason is that youre that loyal and you have someone why you read me??

This is so difficult… member I told you im a difficult person??

So… I am

But im willing to change

I can accept

You  spiting in my mouth and hit me everyday if you just say hi…

I can change and stop talking

If  you come back to me …

Come back to me… and i´ll be your servant for the rest of my life

I can trade my life

To be with you

To have you again…

Anything, anything for you

To see you smiling and hear your voice

To touch you and kiss your hands

To feel your touch on my skin

To hug you

And taste you again

Anything

I would trade all my smiles

To see yours

I can give out all I have

All I want

Just to feel your arms around me

Or not even for that

Just to see you

behind the cold screen of my laptop

October 6 2013

It was a terrible day yesterday,

I woke up crying because I dreamed of you

And didn’t want to get up

Didn’t want to look at my cellphn

Because I knew there was nothing from you

During my work time was hard

Because everything reminded me of you

The names of my customers

Allan something

People from

Scarborough

Main

Rochester…

Well… that was a terrible morning

Me trying to forget and smile

But all my tears coming at once…

One of my customers, the one from main,

Asked what happened

When I asked for the zip code and I saw the name of that

And my voice got broken he sd

Is everything ok?? I replayed,

Yes…

I asked for the place… he sd yes that´s the area were ill be using my phn the most

Then my system got frozen I asked him..

Sorry, are you by the lake?

And he sd yes I am by the lake

Have you been here??

I sd, no…

Then I couldn’t cont talking

And he asked again

Is everything ok??

I sd with my voice broken

Yes, sir sorry, my system is still frozen I have to open my tools again

Then he said…

No, im asking if you are ok, I know your system is not that good but I think you´re not good neither…

I didn’t respond

Then he said

Sorry youre not ok, God bless you

Then at the end of the day

Told to my friend Kelly

Why? What kind of father is God that enjoy to see me crying?

Im asking him not to mk me forget about Alan

Not to make me hate him

Not to make him come back to me

But to stop this pain in my heart

But he is not helping me

I just want to remind him with a smile without tears

But

I get soaked of tears without smiles…

She told me…

Sorry my friend you feel guilty

And this sorrow wont stop

And the worst is that you didn’t know how you love him…

Now you realized you cant live without him

And is now when you have to try without him…

Today I got up without tears

I thot of you and felt how I wanted to…

Not happiness but no tears.. no terrible pain

Then the destiny

Came with a phrase

Hay teléfonos, e-mails, facebook, twitter, whatsapp, cartas, telegramas y señales de humo. Si no te habla es porque no quiere.

No need to translate since u wont read this….

As my profile picture on fb I got hit on my face and my mouth is bleeding…

At this moment I wish I get in an accident that erase you from my mind

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3pkWeWDn25I

what I really want??

You back… nothing else

If I don’t have you

Tell me a good reason to continue

Like when you feel under the big foot of the world

Piedelmundo…

What If...

Morning.. 

Today i didnt get up crying, tnks God, but i didnt stop loving you

or thinking of you...

Ok.. i have a little  question in my mind... 

I asked you to please help me by not reading my e-cards...

and you as a good  person, wich you are!!, 

you did...

mmmm... interesting!!

btw... i dont know, i dont get any notification if you read my e-mails or not.... 

fortunatelly!!

but... if you are that good person, i asked to dont read me and you did 

what if...

I tell you to respond my calls??

actually, i need that...

mmmmm... i think i´ll die without knowing

because im so scare of you... 

i love you and respect you but... 

if you respond a call i would be so scare of what you would say... 

Hey.. this is sunday!! happy day babe... go on the bike and enjoy!!

i want you happy, please make the favor to be happy!! 

Piedelmundo!!

Dreamed of you

Good day...

Wha a sad morning...

i just opened my eyes 

and tried to remember what i dreamed

i dreamed of you

but is terrible sad to 

realize that now my words are 

just wind 

or 

like a book writen for nothing... 

nobody will read them

but tnk u 

is what i asked for 

is what i get...

this is how i woke up on those days when we were mad 

opened my eyes 

then felt u so far 

nothing on my phn from u 

why  to get up??...

is sad to realize you wont read me...

i dreamed of you...

what i dreamed is not important at all..

and dreaming of you doesnt mean nothing

just that i´m thinking too much of you and that i love you

see you when the destiny wants us together again, while that happens, take care and be happy...

i think it will work for me to stop bothering you 

i mean...

to know that u wont read me 

wht a big discouragement!!

mmmm :(

by the way... it is october the 5th 6:30 am...

so i just opened my eyes thinking of you

cuz i dreamed of you

Piedelmundo

Thanks...

Well...
i never asked for something and cry for being heard 
and my words followed as demand...

but is better or is what i want to think...
i had a little hope  
now 
i have a smile 
because you were reading me 
and lots of tears 
because every word i will say 
wont be read 
all my feelings will go to the air 
and get lost...
you wont read me anymore 
and wont know  how i love you...

but i know u loved me 
i know since you are helping me
that´s what i asked for...

those words are so beautifull and i was so glad 
you were reading me 
but 
if they´re not doing nothing 
if they´re not reaching your heart 
just feeding your curiosity 
they come to be like a terrible joke 
nobody wants to say 
and no one wants to hear 
maybe one day...
in a couple of years i´ll come back to my words 
and cry again because they´re full of love 
but u didnt care of them 
or 
maybe one day 
in a couple of years or more 
i´ll come to them and be glad u never read them 
because we both found happiness...

wish the 2nd option

these days a friend told me 
i see you everywhere 
because i compare you with everybody!! 
i know 
im looking for you 
and dont let anybody to come in my life... 
avoid eye contact 
avoid smiles...

i know i dont compare you 
and is not my fault if english is a short languaje...
but now on 
if someone remind me of you 
i´ll smile because you were the best thing i ever had
and think
maybe there is someone else for me
that can make me happy!! 
i hope... 

Piedelmundo!!

Be different

Good morning

One time you told me you are different 

stubborn but different

and in a way thats exactly what keep my in love with you

but now, im asking you to be different for real

is not that i saw you 

or someone told me nothing because im pretty far from you and nobody know you 

but God always show me the reality 

one time when you went to your father house 

 

yes i have this pic!!!  

that time, God showed me you guiding a girl 

then i kept dreaming of you and the same girl

i didnt say nothing bcz i knew you were not to say nothing 

but i knew u had someone 

if that was for real or virtual, i dont know

that weekend you told me you were busy and unable to call 

as every weekend..

so i was the girl for the bussiness days

well... that is not important for you .. i know 

is only important for me since i still love you 

believe me i fight this everyday 

every morning 

every nite... is very embarrasing for me to admit i cant stop bothering you 

and im praying for this... 

im asking for a miracle, God is a imposibles God... so, 

im asking him to take out the sorrow

ok but the thing is... 

please help me and be different 

i have to admit i wont stop writing to you because that´s the way i am 

i love to post what i feel and in your case 

i want you to know what i feel 

but you can help not reading my e-cards 

just delete them when you get them 

and as i mentioned before 

by doing that you will show respect and love to the one with you

Do you really think someone deserve that??

what if she find you reading me?? 

ok... you mite say is just curiosity 

but, you are still reading me

i think is not fair for a soul in love!!

please let me be right 

and be different

that´s exactly what i loved of you!!

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Practice living

I wrote this yesterday morning... 2nd of october...

is so terrible to love someone and realize you will never stop 

that you mite find someone but you will never do the things you did for that someone... 

I can imagine you thinking i finally gave up 

im not writing anymore 

and i finally let u go 

as usual because thats what i do the bst 

but no

i didnt stop writing 

or thinking of you

i still do 

if i gave up 

yes i did 

bcz there is no response 

but 

unfortunally 

life is not like a switch

if u want light u turn that on

or off 

if u dont 

life is not the  theory of being human

life is the practice of being human

and we make mistakes on 

so... on the theory i try my bst to stop thinking of you 

and do those things i should and must do for my own benefit 

as study 

wrk

talk with my partners 

fix my slf 

care of myslf 

thats the theory i try on days like today 

2nd of october btw 

not the day u will receive this words i didnt thnk of yet 

then i behave the way i should... as i can bcz words dont wait 

then all of them comes to my mind and hands to express what i feel 

then i have to not make overtime what would give me 10.000 pesos per hour and decide to write to you 

that wont see my sacrifice and wont respond....

but thats how life is....

you decide, as the theoric part of your life, but the reality is totally different 

math, science, filosophy, laws, 

all studies go chasing the same...

theory is what should be 

reality is what it is!! 

then try to live in between..

a lot of words to tell you 

i love you and im thinking of you

life is too short to love someone and dont let that person know 

for me is better to live, love you and let you know 

if you dont care 

if you dont want 

if you dont believe 

if you dont respond 

if you hate me 

that´s totally up to you

but me...

im making my part 

loving you and letting you know!!

Piedelmundo!!!