Un Tornado de pensamientos

Desde las 3 de la manhana en pie, callando un poco los pensamientos con un tanto de lectura, por lo menos trato de alimentar la mente con algo de servicio...

exacto a las 5 comienzan las horas laborales, y comienza este tornado de ideas, recuerdos, pensamientos llanto, ira, dolor, cansancio, silencio y gritos todo alli combinado,,,

un tornado y yo estoy parada en el centro observando todo, recibiendo los golpes de cada recuerdo y trato de mantener alguna clase de cordura de no caer, de no dejarme llevar por la corriente, por los vientos turbulentos

 

despues de 8 horas de trabajo intenso en el ordenador y toda esta tormenta mental me siento nuevamente tratando de ajuntar un par de palabras en mi pantalla, y solo puedo pensar que esto fue un tornado violento con lluvias y relampagos, pero que por ahora ha pasado... y me deja esta falsa tranquilidad hasta la siguiente ocasion...

Un tornado en mi mente, si tan solo tuviese 4 manos para escribir en alguna computadora alterna mientras estoy laborando y asi no perder todas esas palabras, todas esas lagrimas...

se los dejo alli!!! 

Lo Ke El Mundo Piensa y La Realidad...

Por todas partes solemos ver como se anuncian esas imagenes de lo que mamá, papá hermanos, amigos, compañeros en fin... 
el mundo entero....
y siempre es mas hermoso lo ke los demas imaginan ke la realidad...
en mi caso...
el año pasado cuando me mude en las cuatro
o paredes mas reducidad ke he podido ver 
todo el mundo imaginaba que seguramente era una mansion y que alli disfrutaba de la libertad
haciendo y deshaciendo con mi vida 

ERROR....
era ir a trabajar y regresar, mantener mi lugar limpio y tratar de sobrevivir con todo lo ke me sucedia en mi soledad 

en mi trabajo... el hecho de ser una persona organizada no me hace millonaria... 
creo ke algunas personas no comprenden el termino...

y para no hacer el cuento largo... 
ahora me he convertido en la compañera de cuarto o cosa por el estilo de alguien...  
en mi trabajo las miradas picarezcas me bañan 
los comentarios de lo bien ke lo debo estar pasando 
en mi propia barriada la misma situacion
mi familia haciendo el mismo tipo de comentarios
en fin....
el mundo entero haciendose una idea completamente errada
de lo ke sucede
y lo ke sucede en la realidad 
es tan triste ke  nisiquiera se ke pasa 

con estas situaciones tan jocosas ke solo me producen insomnio 
y dolor de cabeza ademas del tonto estress por ver mi tiempo 
e impulso perdido 

me acuerdo de lo ke solia comentar mi mama...
alguien ke ella conocia 
solia decir: 
"ke me pase lo ke piensa mi mujer y no lo ke piensa mi mama"

ahora solo puedo afirmar...
ke me pase lo ke piensa el mundo entero ke me pasa 
y no lo ke en realida sucede!!

mas ke triste...  ABURRIDO!
mañana tengo ke ir a trabajar 
tengo dolor de cabeza
y ni pokito de ganas de dormir...
vaya dia!! 

Piedelmundo...

Two Of A Kind/ 2

Female and Male...
Two worlds
A green and a blue bubble
Two runners of the life
Just two people

Those two souls that anybody could say could belong to eachother
Those two with similar taste
music
movies
books
walking
laugh
Those two that are looking for their other half
Two pieces of two different fruits from the same tree...

Can, only, imagine those moments by your side
sharing life
sharing experiences
laughing without fears
no need of makeup

just living the freedom that a good friendship provide
with someone similar

solo puedo imaginar esos momentos
compartiendo vida
y experiencias
cada quien en su lado
sin necesidad de disfrazar una mirada
sin buscar la aceptacion de nadie
solo vivir esa libertad que una buena amistad ofrece
al estar al lado de alguien que comparte los mismos gustos
caminar por la ciudad hablando y riendo
olvidarse de como nos vemos o vestimos
simplemente vivir la alegria de tener una hermosa amistad

imagino esos momentos ke jamas llegaran
sentarme en una playa contigo
espalda con espalda 
risas infinitas 
un pastel y dos cucharas

two pieces of different fruits from the same tree 
two of a kind... 
same taste 
Two runners of the life
Just two people
looking for their other half

Piedelmundo...

SHOCKED!!

Moving around

hearing the voices by my side 

taking decisions 

and trying to move on...

but,, then get shocked!!!

hearing my friends telling me i have to move on

everything is lost 

i made many mistakes 

and now i have to stop crying and 

try to live... 

tried to move on 

went for ice-cream 

with someone, 

and in a moment he have my hand between his hands 

just opened my eyes 

and got shocked...

those hot hands,,, as the one!!!

i never felt b4 or after 

for a second thot to close my eyes 

and put that hand on my face 

and keep remembering those hands 

that touch on my face 

but those were not his hands 

and would make a bigger confusion in my mind 

also on that someone mind...

pulled my hand back 

and walk away...

no... i cant move on

and now, Im totally shocked

have to admit 

Im the big loser 

and nothing will help me to forget 

since everything is bringing every thing 

back to my mind...

Piedelmundo...

Tell God...

Can i ask you again for another prayer? 

i know you are a good man 

i know God hears you 

i know i asked you to pray for my mom and you did 

since that day i went to the doctor with the problem in my eye 

actually he didnt find nothing 

and my eye is not in pain no more... 

I know or want to believe all those good thing happened because you prayed...

i need to ask you to pray again 

God is not hearing me 

and is not responding. 

everytime i ask for his word 

i get blank pages... 

but i know he hears you 

i told him im his daughter 

not the best one 

not the cherissed one 

but i´m still his daughter 

but he doesnt hear me 

and nothing is working for me

please tell him i need his help

tell him im suffering 

im crying 

everyday, everymorning, everynight...

everyinstant i remember you 

for simple or complicated, things that comes to me 

please tell him  i want him to change your heart 

and thoughts about me 

tell him i need you with me 

no matter what the world think is the best for me 

no matter what he think i need 

i know what i want 

and want you back 

tell him i dont care if you´re not mine 

if you come talking about your love for someone

with a different name 

if you come and let me see you 

tell him

i dont care 

if you come as my friends 

for advices and ideas of how to show sum love for someone 

tell him i dont care...

if one tear comes to my eyes i´ll dry that off 

and i´ll tell you something got in my eye 

and will enjoy hearing you 

and will help you too 

tell him...

i would disguise my sorrow 

with smiles 

just to see you smiling 

tell him 

i dont care if you call me with a different name 

since you call me... 

pls pray for me... 

because those big miracles 

God give them  

to that good people like you!!

Piedelmundo...

My Pain is not your pain

I was drinking my coffee thinking of you 

opened my laptop to inform you about my sadness 

and i got the wistle from my phone 

i thot... ok i´ll see who is bothering 

is not who i want to txt or call me...

so...

then i realized i just bothered you for the day 

but i still have this feeling inside of me 

I have to admit... i mean in front of you 

because i did last nite for my self 

i have to admit i  was expecting you to at least say hi

then when i opened my eyes today 

after i went back on my sent messages (last nite)

i reminded 

everytime time i told you to finish the relationship 

after a couple of days 

when u called me i replayed and we continued 

because your pain, your laugh, your love 

was mine 

and i felt the same for you 

and couldnt live without 

no, all those feelings were nothing to be capable to live with 

all those feeling were my life 

NO, im NOT asking for you to come back to me as nothing happened 

i was just asking for at least say hi or stop bothering you... 

just to remind you, Im not Paulette 

and i didnt cheat on you

i told you to finish the relationship because i wanted to have you

but you were to buy the airline...

then i realized 

i can go there and cry at your feet 

and you would cont walking 

because my pain is not your pain

I´m crying 

and you dont care

Im thinking of you 

but you´re away 

I wish i can stop writing to you 

but i cant stop loving you

cant stop crying 

cant stop thinking of you

you´re not an inspiration for 

a poem 

you´re my inspiration for life 

you were my inspiration to raise a family

but now you´re my inspiration 

to cry...

I have to get over this... 

i know i must

but for now... 

i cant tell when...

and i will cont writing as i feel sorrow!!

Piedelmundo...

P/s:   I LOVE U AND I WILL 4 EVER!!

The first

Love this pic!!

I had to take out the picture...
there is nothing i should remind
my heart is in love.. but i should forget

Piedelmundo...

Lyrics for you

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c0a9HLj40iQ

I have a poor heart

sometimes broken, turned off

 but never gave up

surrounded of paperboard stars, i lost my ilusion of an Angel to come, 

raise me

and ask me to love him 

suddenly a lucky day i met you 

you came across my way 

now i believe the destiny

to have you 

for ever with me

but more luck is to love  you and you to feel the same 

voices say this crazy love 

doesn´t have solution

that your world 

and my world don´t 

that your wolrld and my world don´t 

surrounded of paperboard stars, i lost my ilusion of an Angel to come, raise me

and ask me to love him 

suddenly a lucky day i met you 

you came across my way 

now i believe the destiny

to have you 

for ever with me

but more luck is to love  you and you to feel the same 

suddenly a lucky day i met you 

you came across my way 

now i believe the destiny

to have you 

for ever with me

but more luck is to love  you and you to feel the same 

but more luck is to love  you and you to feel the same...

a stupid SAD smile on my lips... now im doing what i didnt do when i could...

 and you must be thinking...

LLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEEEEE!!! 

I should be studying, law history, reading Antigona of Sofocles,preparing my classes, watching nuremberg judgement movie

but my heart is not logical and my mind is off... 

im missing you...

pray for me to get healthy... then ill be at work  and college busy and wont bother you

someone asked me if you were that handsome or rich for me to be crying all the time

i replayed 

no, he is not that beautifull for the world... but for me...

is an Angel 

he doesnt need to smile 

because he is the happiness himslf

he is not covered of gold 

but he is made of gold 

and there is no way for me to stop crying 

if he is not with me

if  happiness is not with me

yes... you must be mocking on me and thinking 

as u did many times 

yes, cry... 

but i preffer that instead of feeling all this and die without telling you 

Piedelmundo...

                          

Convos...

Sometimes i´m out on the street, out of my reality

talking with you

having those long conversations... 

i imagine you smiling 

and replaying with your particular 

phrases...

then i come here to my space 

in the earth

then i realize 

i was just in a trip in my own mind...

today when the doctor put the patch on my eye 

i thot of u looking at me with this...

laughing out loud 

and i ran home to show you

then i reminded 

there is no more Alan for me 

no more laughters of us...

and i...

I am sorry i came in to your life to give you lots of bitterness 

but I am more sorry for me

I cant forget of your smile...

maybe one day you´ll find those things that makes me feed a stupid little hope 

but for now... 

let me tell you 

I love you 

and if one day 

u decide to say hi 

in a one, five , ten, or a million of years 

I´ll respond with a smile

because as my mom said... 

he found the love of his life

i did too... 

the difference

mine... is you!!

Piedelmundo...

Dreamed of you!!

I dreamed of You...

I was at work and I came out because I saw you standing out there

I tried to say hi 

but u were quiet and mad 

i saw my hand  alone and started to talk and  to apologize 

then after a couple of words my partner Kelly called me 

I had to go back to log in 

I started at her then continued watching you there 

I asked why youre so mad?

and why u were there if you are so mad at me?
but you didnt respond... 

i felt to cry 

and i got up... 

Piedelmundo... 

Colombian Valentine´s day

These days people is all around 
singing
buying things
preparing a special moment for their special someone

chocolates, candies
music, gifts, games 
pictures 
everything for those hearts beating

But me... i´m just watching thru my window 
trying to dress a smile 
calling a name in silence 
keeping my tears back 

every body have someone to call, to kiss 
i dont even have someone to think about 
everybody have a heart beating 
i have a heart bleeding soaked of tears 

maybe one day you decide to say hi 
i hope is not so late...
maybe i just keep my hopes and die waiting 
for a word that would never  come...

Piedelmundo...

Amor obligado....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZnbljN1xCdQ 

Y quien dijo que se puede amar obligado? 

si nisiquiera Dios que es ser supremo dueño de todo 
padre de todos 
puede obligar a nadie a amarle
ahora que queda para nosotros pobres mortales 
soplos de vida 
miserable pedazos de gente andante 
si podemos morir de amor y solo vernos enfrentados al silencio
en mil ocasiones podemos encontrar mas respuesta en cualquier muro 
que de los labios del ser amado
solo queda el imaginarnos un futuro 
envuelto de risas falsas 
o llanto cruzado por que no podemos borrar los recuerdos 
pensar que tal vez algun dia
dejaremos de estar de rodillas y volveremos a caminar 
tal vez sin corazon o con un pedazo de ego en su lugar 
en busca de alguna otra soledad  
por acompañar 
y desgraciadamente seguir mirando atras a ese pasado 
cuando no logramos obligar a nadie a amarnos... 

Piedelmundo...