How to finish with a stupid dream... and sand castle!!!

Just before i start.. I want you to know i love u with my heart.... 

and wanted to b w u for th rest of my life but ur mind and life is not made for a complicated person like me... i waited for so long now and i know u have all ur reasons and thots tht i respect but continuing with this relationship is to unrespect my slf... im getting old, just wasted 4 years of my life.. first being in love, then wishing to bring all tht happiness!! to my life,but now after all tht time, after i moved from a better life to wht i had in monteria, tht is not hidden to u at all, and coming here living all this mess suffering loneliness and running away from my mind, pretending to fill up my life with work,,, i realized u are not for me and if u with ur hands are trying to build something for us.. im sorry but is totally hidden from my knowledge and my heart

we are just use to mention a name when someone ask and thts is certainly not wht i want for th rest of my life... 
u took so long and ure so quiet for a desperate old woman who want to feel love and share w th man she loved 
i mite be talking too much and certainly trying to talk for u but thts how i am whn im before th silence...

this time only one thing would mk me change my mind but.. i wont mention bcz i dont want u to feel im moving any string... im not im sincere and just let u go and find another happy simple soul like u.. i mite not find another complicated but smiling soul for me but i wont cont mking ur life miserable with all my bitterness and needs...


Piedelmundo